Nintendo 3dsxl (Kirkstall LS5)

Can anyone please help me I am looking for a nintendo 3dsxl i had one before and I lost it I still got the games on my nintendo account some is what one of my relatives got me for Christmas years a go and they passed away and I haven't played most of them it's means a lot to me if I can get a nintendo 3ds xl I suffer from autism and anxiety and a lot of of stress and this means so much to me if anyone who has a free one I be very grateful I be happy to make a tea or coffee as a thank you